well . . .

it has been a long time since i have even looked at xanga. ALOT has happened.

im am a senior now

i have a 3.5 (who would have ever thought)

corey is in the army. and yes we are STILL together. almost 4 years now.

he came up from ga for xmass and spent 2 weeks with me (those  most amazing time ever)

i applied to college. still no word back

i am or was a manager till i got in trouble. ( yeah nothing changes im still getting myself into trouble)

im grounded till my bday it jan. my bday is in march . . .

show choir is a lot of fun cept for the fact we suck this year.

i am so ready to leave high school, but in a way im not.

my life right now is just stressful and i really want  a break!

what it is!!! how long has it been since i have writin in this!!! UMMM FOREVER.

here is the DL i have a car and me license SWEET. today was my last day as being a Jr at river! SENIORS 07!!!! i drive every where now and am have an awesome time. my bf is about to go into the army sad face but its what he wants so yea for him   im going down to my beach house with my Descant Girls and am gunna have a blast and soon ill be going to shpw choir boot camp. . . ehhh what can ya do. Im in AG and CE this year so that should be sweet. im am now a library slut haha. any way gotta bounce LOVE

Currently Listening A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! At the Disco see related

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! HOLLER FOR THE BIG 06!!!!!

ok this year is going to be fucking awesome cause im gunna make it that way. . . . i hope . . .

haha at least ill be driving! YES! clear the roads  im comin through! hehe 

so yeah things are going pretty good i must say. been driving around like crazy! gettin my shizit done. had a pretty good xmass. i got an ipod nano its teh sex. and the a bunch of other cool stuff. well tmw i have to go back to school and im dreading it! ehhhhhh. i dont wannna! so new years was pretty hot. nothing to special but hot.

sooo yeah. . . . . i think im done.

HEY what it is hoes!

yeah i feel bad i have givin my xanga any love and its xmass eve so i think i should. . .

its been kinda crazy latly. i got my license YAY for jenn. i have been pretty much living at school cuz im a westling manager. i love it its a lot of fun and not as much work as you would think it to be. i have made a lot of new friends. other than that i have been chillin with corey a lot now that he has a car and what not i can see him more. i have been keeping my grades up in school to i have a 3.2  haha never thought id see that. . .

so yeah its def xmass and i can help but feel kinda down. i really miss my old xmasses. i miss wanting to decorate the house cuase i was in the xmass spirt. this year has been nothing like that. i still really havnt takin in the idea that tmw morning i will be opening gifts and seeing family. it kinda snuck up on me this year and has been nothing but a pain. i really wish i could go back to when i was younger cuz this was such a magicle time. i would be so excited i couldnt fall a sleep and i couldnt wait to see what cool things a i got from santa.

i hope that this year when my family is together they will all acted like they used to act. for some reason my family doesnt act like a family any more. i really really miss that. i used to throw a fit when we all couldnt be together on xmass. cause i loved how we all acted together. of course you would here the all same stories that you heard last year and people would crack the same jokes but we were all together as a loving family. eveything has just gone so down hill. now im the drama queen teenager my sister is just horrible for not being my dads lil girl my brother wont even come home for the holidays  he just calls and asks for money insted and my other sister is  so upsessed with her kid she doesnt have time for anyone else. not only that my dad has just gone crazy he isnt the same person he used to be any more. everyone see it its not just me, i just want a happy xmass but i know tmw when i wake up people will open there gifts and my mom will bitch about the mess and then ill git bitched at to clean it every one will make bitchy comments about everyone else and the air will be full of attitude from ever one. MERRY FUCKING XMASS.

now dont get me wrong im very happy for what i do have cause i know there are a lot of people who arnt even getting a xmass i just wish we could have one like our old ones used to be.